Honestly, some days are great and some days are horrible. Today was one of those shitty days. A few things happened today and it led me to take a load of xanax and drinking as well as self harming. It’s the night time now and I’ve taken more sleeping pills than normal to help me sleep.
It affects so many areas of my life. It impacts my relationships, my work and my psychical health.
Living with borderline personality disorder is a constant battle each day, everyday I have to remind myself to stay positive, even throughout times when I feel low. Sometimes suicidal thoughts just pop up. I can experience every single emotion from happiness to sadness in the space of 24 hours.
It’s always a struggle but I’m slowly getting there, taking my medication and have regularly therapy and practicing self care.