Honestly, some days are great and some days are horrible. Today was one of those shitty days. A few things happened today and it led me to take a load of xanax and drinking as well as self harming. It’s the night time now and I’ve taken more sleeping pills than normal to help me sleep.
It affects so many areas of my life. It impacts my relationships, my work and my psychical health.
Living with borderline personality disorder is a constant battle each day, everyday I have to remind myself to stay positive, even throughout times when I feel low. Sometimes suicidal thoughts just pop up. I can experience every single emotion from happiness to sadness in the space of 24 hours.
It’s always a struggle but I’m slowly getting there, taking my medication and have regularly therapy and practicing self care.
After my post yesterday, I honestly had no idea how it would be perceived. I definitely did not expect the amount of love and messages I received and I just wanted to say a massive thank you to everyone. Your support gives me strength everyday.
I’m so grateful for all you amazing people that have been so supportive of this. I really hope together we can break the stigma surrounding mental health.
Finding an amazing support network around you is key to a great recovery and I’ve realised just how many people around me care for me. Find your support network and you’ll be able to make it through the toughest of times.
For anyone else feeling this way, please realise how many people care about you and I’m also here for anyone, anytime of day. My inbox is open.
It’s time to talk about mental health. I’m about to get real here. Over a week ago I tried to kill myself twice. Even now I still feel super down and I’m struggling to survive. I decided to take a medical leave of absence from school to take the time to improve and work on my mental health.
I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD, borderline personality disorder, depression and anxiety. It’s not been easy so far and it it’s not going to be super easy in the future but I want to share my my recovery to show that it is possible to get better. I’ll be honest with how I feel and share much more of my past journey and current journey with mental health.
I’ll be sharing my recovery here, on my website and on YouTube. It’s time to break the stigma about mental health.
Thanks for joining me! I’m excited to start this blog as a way to share my progress on my mental health recovery. My blog posts will most likely be short daily updates but here it goes. Over the weekend, I tried to kill myself twice. I’ve been diagnosed with a variety of mental health illnesses: PTSD, borderline personality disorder, depression and anxiety. Right now, I’m just happy to be back in the comfort of my bed and home, taking each day as it comes. I go to an outpatient facility most days to get my medications and where they check up on me. Right now I’m on a medical leave of absence from university to focus on my mental health. I hope this blog can help to encourage others to speak up about their experiences with mental health and break the stigma surrounding it.